The cow got to visit...

Places I want to showed the Cow, things I want the Cow to tasted/experienced :

1. Krispy Kream Donuts - the best donuts ever - ticked (best donut ever agreed)
   
2. Knightsbridge - eating Krispy Kream Donuts in Knightsbridge - ticked (best place with freshest made donuts)
   
3. Portobello Market - on a Saturday morning - ticked (shopaholics in action!)
   
4. Camden Town - look at another side of Britian - ticked (cow said Portobello was FAV!)
   
5. Piccadilly Circus/Leicester Square - the area where I work at - ticked
6. Stockpot - a place to order food from british menu - ticked (said nice food but a bit salty)
7. The Wishing Well - great 3 course meal for £7.95 - ticked (good ambience for long chats and catching up)
   
8. Oxford Circus/Bond Street - just like Orchard Road back home - 1/2 ticked (only a very small bit of Oxford circus)
9. Covent Garden - look at some buskers - ticked (3 times within the first day!?)
10. Tate Modern - my Fav museum. heard there's a slide there we must go try
11. Thames River - romantic stroll together? Haha... - ticked (beautifully romantic at night)
    
12. British Museum - Must see lovely glass roof?
13. Buckingham Palace - we'll walk from St James Park
14. London Eye - we'll just look at it go round round round - 1/2 ticked (lights were off as it was closed)
    
15. Spitalfield Market/Petticoat Lane Market/Brick Lane - The Arty Farty - ticked (Bought alot at Petticoat Lane)
    
16. Tower Bridge - And we'll hope on over to Big Ben and the Houses of Parliment - 1/2 ticked (Looked at it from out of Tower of London)
    
17. London Bus 15 - old style bus the London way
18. House Party - Housemates are having a Hen Party and Leaving Party for their colleagues - ticked ticked ticked! (Great fun *winks*)
    
19. English Breakfast - the Weatherspoon English Breakfast £1.99? - ticked (Best ENGLISH BREAKFAST ever!)
    
20. Introducing my housemates, colleagues and friends - when possible - ticked
21. Borough Market - ticked (went round sampling loads of food, ate alot and bought alot! FAV food market!)
22. H&M and PRIMARK - ticked (More shopping? Well, girls will still be girls!)
    

There's so much to see, so much to do, but such little time. - very ticked!

During the short span my friend, the Cow, had in London. I've tried my best to show her the best of London as much as I could. We walked like mad everyday!

And here's a montage of us in Rome, Italy. Rome was nice. Lovely weather (though super cold in the early wee hours and late wee hours), nice food, best gelato!!! The cow and I spent 4 days in Rome. We walked all day long till our feet hurts. We stuffed ourselves constantly with food and GELATOS! We snapped countless of photos! We tried out 2 different hostels too. And during our last night in Rome, we met an American born chinese lad in our hostel. It was his first ever backpacking trip out of LA to Italy for 9 days. That's pretty neat. Wish I had such courage to go backpacking on my own for a period of time in unfamiliar lands.

Bringing the cow to visit...

2more days to go...

Places I want to show the Cow, things I want Cow to taste/experience :

1. Krispy Kream Donuts - the best donuts ever
2. Knightsbridge - eating Krispy Kream Donuts in Knightsbridge
3. Portobello Market - on a Saturday morning
4. Camden Town - look at another side of Britian
5. Piccadilly Circus/Leicester Square - the area where I work at
   
6. Stockpot - a place to order food from british menu
7. The Wishing Well - great 3 course meal for £7.95
8. Oxford Circus/Bond Street - just like Orchard Road back home
9. Covent Garden - look at some buskers
10. Tate Modern - my Fav museum. heard there's a slide there we must go try
11. Thames River - romantic stroll together? Haha...
12. British Museum - Must see lovely glass roof?
13. Buckingham Palace - we'll walk from St James Park
14. London Eye - we'll just look at it go round round round
15. Spitalfield Market/Petticoat Lane Market/Brick Lane - The Arty Farty
16. Tower Bridge - And we'll hope on over to Big Ben and the Houses of Parliment
17. London Bus 15 - old style bus the London way
18. House Party - Housemates are having a Hen Party and Leaving Party for their colleagues
19. English Breakfast - the Weatherspoon English Breakfast £1.99?
20. Introducing my housemates, colleagues and friends - when possible
    

There's so much to see, so much to do, but such little time.

The cow coming to visit

Hee... Cow or moo moo cow. That's the nickname for one of my friends back home, whom is coming over to visit (coming friday) for a short holiday. Sad to say, we only have 3-4 days in London together as the rest of the holiday we'll be visiting Rome together. I'm really looking forward to it. I've been working like a mad Pea and she's been working like a mad Cow (not mad cow disease, mind ya). Just so we could have time for our holiday. But alas I'm sick right now. So pray hard that I'll be well again before she gets here. :) Erm.. but I've not booked our hostel yet. Tsk tsk.. perhaps we should be a little adventurous and just go find ourselves the hostel when we get there. Haha.. Life will be hell of an adventure. Here we come!

P.S. Thank god my auntie will not be coming with me to Rome. Positive confirmation! *smirks*

And so I borrowed my own shoulders

The last time I remembered me crying my heart out, till my eyes were sore and my lungs tired, was on some cold November night, 2005. I was alone. In freezing Blackpool. It's nearly a year now, isn't it? This time I am (alone) too, but in London.

Maybe I am the kind to bottle things up and then explode once it's reached its limit? This time with no exception. That last time I cried because someone had chickened out, vanishing into thin air leaving all promises unfulfilled and still is. This time, work has driven me mad. I couldn't handle all my tasks with just one pair of hands anymore. It's gotten to a stage where everyone thinks I'm some kinda super woman who could just juggle knives and fireballs with one hand. I'm tired. Very tired. When can I stop and take a rest? Do I have to wait till the day I'm six feet underground to be able to R.I.P?

Perhaps I should go on a course whereby they teach you, a) how to manage your work and life; b) how to manage and/or handle people; c) how to say NO to every requested task that's forever urgent; d) how not to think you are a superwoman and push your workload to others; e) how to talk to your team leaders and perhaps how to talk as well; and maybe f) how to be happy again. Note the 'again'. I used to be happy, carefree, and there to bring smiles to people's life. Now they've robbed me of what I only had. I'm more filled with sorrows than smiles now, albeit the fact that both start with 's'.

Sometimes I wonder why and what am I doing here? No kin, no friends, nobody. Why? No doubt I've come a long way, but made a friend of loneliness. Sometimes I wish I had someone there to share my times with, guess I'm picky with whom I choose. Who could I to blame? No one. No doubt again I've come a long way, and I so hate it when people tell me to give up; to think that I'll always have home to fall back on if all else fails. I do not like that. I know the intention may be well, but it does not encourage nor give me the support and strength I could need to pull through here on my own. I do not like to submit to the fate that I can always depend on home if I fail over here. I like and am proud how I've managed this far in living alone on my own, apart from the fact that I need to learn how to sort out myself, my life, my sorrowful outlook, my being. Remember, I must learn how not to run away again. Oh, someone, please give me the courage I need to pull through this.

I shall find a way to make myself happy again. Who likes reading entries that're always full of frustration, anger and sadness? I don't. I think I'm falling ill. My throat feels sore. Who shall care for me? Who will care for me? Me, myself and I.


P.S. I thought, perhaps looking forward, at least to some comfort in seeking a shoulder to cry on while lamenting a hard day's work after this long tedious day was able to realise. However I gotta laugh at myself - when have I ever been lucky to have such a luxury here? I've not gotten its favour. And so I borrowed my own shoulders.